Learning to Lean

I began classes at Northern Arizona University about two weeks ago...Our life has officially become exhausting and hectic. I am taking a class every day and continuing to work twenty-plus hours at the athletic club.

I am surprisingly grateful that Blake has just switched over to the graveyard shift at the police department. Our schedules mesh together wonderfully. We each get plenty of time alone with Evie, together with Evie, and together without Evie. I'm optimistic that the next couple of months are going to provide an amazing amount of time together for our family... even though we just added several new aspects to our lives.

I am consistently reminded that the Lord has and will take care of all our needs. He has provided everything (above and beyond) and opened opportunities that are more perfect than I could have ever dreamed up myself.

...So why do I continue to worry and stress about getting from one point to the next? Instead of relying on Him, who is a 'sure thing', and who I know to be trustworthy, I choose to rely on myself - Miss Spastic who allows her emotions to get the best of her.

I'm learning to lean on the One who is tried and true. It's a process that takes numerous trials and errors. And every once-in-awhile, I'm thankful to find myself succeeding by choosing to lean on the Lord first, instead of myself.